Clear It Up

Hey friends thanks for the concern!

But that horrendously emo post was written on last year's May something on my friendsterblog. Yar was feeling quite off back then due to many things, but now I'm quite fine!

Thanks you all again. Emo is never quite my thing.. *BIG SMILE*

MySpace

Hey folks, let's get moving to MySpace!


I got my own URL since there aren't many chunkiats out there with a MySpace account yet.

http://www.myspace.com/chunkiat

Right on! It's way better than Friendster.

Add me on the way!

MySpace can pay me a little huh.. haha

EMO!

I'm glad things are sorted out already.

anyway i've been feeling weird lately.. is it due or lack of sleep or what.. its like i cant sleep till really late.. like now [3:58 am] but i am tired..
maybe i'm just too worried about a lot of things lar.. too much stuff in my head to remember to do or i'll die..
yup.. literally die.. cause a lot of people still thinks i'm not capable enough yet.. not capable enough to take over..
but then again.. if you guys dun trust me .. why?
i have no idea.. maybe i'll try my best to cram all that is to be done inside my head..
my brain is kind of acting like my secretary.. like at this time it would just remind me that i have to do this and that..
well it isnt easy to be able to manage 6 smses coming in at one shot..
and all require immediate attention..
it is not easy.. miss the old days so much..
but what to do when your bestest friends are either still in secondary school or in other colleges away from you? or you r closer friends only see you in the morning and civics lesson? and you havent seen them in months.. and those that are around you now are not really the ones you feel dependent on.. i don't know what i go to school for.. to be ridicule by 'classmates' as the sickly councillor or the boy who always sleeps in class..
you guys just don't understand me well enough.. see what will you be like if you are in my shoes.. and i take your place and complain that i have gotten ONLY 16/20 for some lousy physics test while you stare at your 4/20 script..
life is just so unfair sometimes.. why do some people always make the right judgement for themselves and end up with so much for themselves while i make wrong judgements after wrong judgements and end up doing things nobody really appreciates?
take for example.. that day when cui yin came up to me and asked why am i still so stupid to continue taking AO chinese.. i did not even think about why until she came up to me that day [thanks sis]..
then thoughts just start to appear.. why the trouble why the fuss why the mistakes again and again.. call me loser but sometimes i just want to retreat into somewhere safe.. familiar friends and places where i know i can exist without the feeling of emptiness.. having a CLIQUE.. close group of friends that i can relate to during lessons and outside class as well.. unlike now.. [the loner in the class]
had a nice talk with this not really senior of mine.. maybe its a good idea.. maybe.. but i'll have to wait for the results first..
[thanks for the time]

Wah emo lar.. what was I thinking?

On hindsight, that's sad!

30 Days

American television kick ass lar

Watched this particular episode of "30Days", the brainchild of the same guy famous for his many controversial documentaries particularly "Super-sized Me" Morgan Spurlock. The objective of 30 Days is to put an "extremist" of sorts into the community for 30 days to see how it is like. For example, a homophobe lives with a gay and enters the gay community for 30 days; a racist to live with the other race for 30 days etc.

So this particular episode I watched involves minuteman Frank who lived with the Gonzales for 30 days. Minutemen are voluntary border patrol who stake it out at the American/Mexican border armed with guns, rifles and whatnots to report on Mexicans and Central Americans who attempt to cross the border to pursue the American dream illegally. They report directly to the officials, who then deports the illegal immigrants immediately.

Yup, US still faces huge problems with illegal immigrants as the Government cannot decide for amnesty or against it, resulting in many Latino illegal immigrants stuck without proper jobs (since they have no "ICs") and having to resort to every method to get money.

The eldest daughter of the family, Armida, holds the hope of being the first in the family to attend college. During Frank's stay, she was the one who had the most debates with him over the issue of illegal immigrants, only to find out the that Frank is also an immigrant from Mexico, albeit a legal one from many years ago. So she seeks to find out why his stand is against the immigrants.

During his stay, Frank also works as a handyman like the patriach of the household, doing many odd jobs in the process as well. He plays golf with Armida (she's good) and lives just like one of them to see if his opinions about illegal immigrants would change.

Classic moments are when Patricia, the matriach, laments about how she blames herself for not being able to be by both her parents' side when they passed away, not because she does not want to, but rather, is unable to. Since she is an illegal, once she leaves America, she would never be able to come back. Also, Rigo, the patriach, talks about his brother Mario back in Mexico.

So Frank makes a trip to Mexico and got to see for himself how bad the Gonzales family was living back in Mexico. He realised that "if anybody lives here, they wouldnt last, and the first thing on their minds is to get out of here" and he begins to understand a little why they took the risk of crossing the border years ago. Also, the reason for Armida's "pia-ness" since she is on eof two kids (of five) that lived in that dilapidated shack in Mexico (with the big field as thier toildt and a near-eutrophicated well as their only source of water).

At the end, when Frank has to live, the family cries but Frank didnt as "men cant cry". It's really nice to see how Frank thanked Pat for her hospitality even though he is supposed to hate them (the illegal immigrants). Patricia and Armida cried, as they are sad over the leaving of a friend (yes Frank changed over the course of the 30 days--he understands their plight and the very reason that fuels their "jumping of the border"). Stuff like that lar.

The biggest realisation that come to me?

Why can't Mediacorp make KICKASS shows like this???????
(please stop making all those travel/feichangjueduisuperhypercampusidolbandstar shows, there are too many of them already)

American TV!!

(sorry about the grammar. time and dry eyes)

WOW

Steve Jobs never fails to amaze me.

iTunes 7 (and the amazing function "Cover Flow")

iPod Video in 80GB

iPod Nano remastered (colours!)

iPod Shuffle (clip & go)

Its a wonder how I stopped myself from buying one nearly a month ago.

Cause the new ones are out!





and I swear, after Chemistry Paper II I shall get my cyclist's tan back.

YOUTH!!

(Uncle) Jack said,

"Brother! Don't be so stressed out! You are still young! Should be having fun man!"

but.. how?

If only I am in Sports & Wellness Management

Tsktsktsk

I realised..

if I had applied for Nanyang Poly's Diploma in Sports & Wellness Management 2 years back, I can still do physiotherapy in other places like ACSM even though it is a diploma in Business Management..

WHY DIDN'T I LOOK THROUGH NYP's WEBSITE??!


JC sucks

Change it!!!! CHANGE

Don't ask about the layout.

After the cursed As, you'll see really nice pictures in the layout.

Trust me. Like loads of Jessica.
Yup, the one in the middle that look a lot like Betti Page. Not that I have a thing for Bettie, but Bettie was really BIG in the 50s (super pin-up status!).

Boy can she dance.
Some more?Maybe I'll even show the world my two lovely vice-captains..

Ok maybe not..

I Am Looking At You Through The Glass

I thought I would abadon writing again, but not as yet!

Mr Steve Irwin passed on.

For those of you still living in Ecuador, he is the famous "Crocodile Hunter" that never fails to create interest and remind us that beasts are still tender souls behind their fierce eyes.

Ironically, Mr Irwin believes that the beasts that he fears the most are not the ones he work with, but rather, the ones around him that he grew up with! Humans.

I wonder how it feels like at that moment when demise is inevitable, like when he felt the sting first piercing his skin.

Which led me to wonder, what would it be like when it is my turn to say "BYE BYE TAKE CARE".

Would I be performing onstage and be crushed by the falling lights? Or would I be knocked down by some truck while cycling on-road?

Well, hopefully it is quick, and that I am doing something that I like (so that my last memory of this world is nice!). That is, I don't want to die of cardiac arrest while quarreling with somebody over anything at all!

The philosophical/logical side of me rarely appears, but when it does, it thinks to itself that whatever it is, DON'T REGRET ANYTHING man.

Seriously, to all those "chao-muggers" out there who pretends not to study, there's only so much that studies take up in our life. So good luck to those struggling for that prestigious quadruple degree in business management! *bigsmile*

Yes, I know I am being bitter, slightly near the point of tasting sour grapes, but who wouldn't? This would be the last time I regret not studying hard enough for 'O' and making it into R.

Then that would have been so different. I wouldn't know the many different people that I know now, my dearest House Comm comrades, PDP people, and the few close friends that keep me company now. Heck, I might not even be able to meet Isaac now and then! Maybe it's all pre-written?

Damn this is getting too emo for my own good.

You might think that I am being childish and angry over nothing in particular, but thats your problem. Too bad, just Logic taking over for the day.